So there I was, on stage, right next to Cole, along with about a dozen other people, as we fought to be the last one standing in this endurance challenge in order to win a $10,000 VIP day with Shanda Sumpter, the leader of the event and one of my coaches.
Throughout the challenge, which up until this point had lasted 45 minutes (yes, 45 minutes with our arms up. Try it.), Shanda was making up new rules that added difficulty. For example, “if you move your arm, sit down,” “if you talk, sit down.” (It’s really hard not to verbally express the discomfort you feel in a moment such as the one we were in.) Once the dozen who were left got on stage as per her request, the next rule was “Pick up one foot, if it touches the ground, sit down,” which caused a domino effect of many participants losing their shot to win the VIP day.
At this point, Cole and I were on stage together, right next to each other, her on the left with her right arm up and me on the right with my left arm up, synchronizing our breath (prana) and our focus (drishti). As I mentioned in the last post, I know that having her there is what got me to this point.
“Lift your leg out straight in front of you.”
And then Cole lost her balance.
And then it was just me.
On stage at this point were 5 of us. My “community” wasn’t there anymore, so it was back to me and my thoughts.
I wanted the VIP day. I wanted to learn and grow for myself and for my clients. I was fully committed.
But then my left calf (of the standing leg) REALLY started to hurt. Like burn. Like it was on fire. My mind was telling my leg that it was on fire and needed to rest. My mind told me to stop being crazy and go sit down. My mind–
And then I lost my balance.
And I was out.
My mental drama took me out.
I was literally just a few people away (and ultimately minutes away) from winning…but I didn’t.
Has this ever happened to you? Have you ever been so close to winning, but then your mental drama took you out of the game?
Despite not winning, as I mentioned in the first article on this, I was still SO excited to prove to myself how strong I really am. I truly had no idea, and it was a total surprise to me. That being said, it definitely would have been great to win. To not let my mental drama be the reason that I didn’t get something that I wanted. I know that next time I am going to show up fully, push through all of the noise, and see myself as the winner on the other side.
It reminded me of something my colleague, Nicole Moore (love coach extraordinaire) said about staying committed:
“There is so much more drama in NOT committing to and sticking with a plan. It feels scary at first, but intimacy, honesty and vulnerability is actually a lot easier than all the games we play and mental drama we put ourselves through.”
Elegantly put, and so brilliant.
So now I want to turn it back to you…
Where are you allowing your mental drama to take you out? What would it look and feel like for you to recommit to your VISION and actually get to the other side?
I would LOVE to hear your vision and plan to recommit–getting past the mental drama– in the comment area below! Get serious with yourself. Get honest with yourself. And hold yourself accountable in this forum!
Til next time… Namasté!